Ten Ton Shoes

I was in a perfect writing mood today, but I’ve realized it’s quite difficult for me to write without complaining, bitching or otherwise coming off as a needy little boy-man. So here you go. If I let my page wither for weeks on end, know that it’s because I’d rather say nothing than wear myself down with another excuse or complaint. That is all.

You’re this close to making me spew;
tread lightly.

There’s something cruel about a blank sheet of paper. It whines of failure, a lack of creativity. An empty page does nothing to soothe a regretful soul; there is no assurance of glory or peace. To look upon blank canvas is to stare one’s ineptitude in the eye, to gaze unshielded at the crippling doubt that introduced hand to paper and pen. A clean slate is man’s blackest promise; one need only disturb the calm to balance eternity on the palm of an unsteady hand.

To whom it may concern,

Sorry I’ve been silent for the last week. I tend to get a little too excited about soul searching when I’m left to fend for myself long enough. I’ve been trying very hard lately not to bother anyone or show anything that might be misconstrued as neediness, but at a certain point even I need some help. Feedback is what I’m asking for. Below are a few short questions I pose to you; Send answers to my ask box, anonymously if you want. I promise not to repost any of it. What I’m asking for is honesty, brutal if needs be. I really want to change, but the first step I guess is figuring out what I have to work with. Thanks for the help, my friends. And to those of you who don’t know me, I apologize if you wasted any time reading this.

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Survey:

1. Write one or two sentences describing your first impression of me.

2. What 3 words would you say best describe my personality?

3. What is the single most unattractive aspect of my personality?

4. What is the most attractive aspect of my personality?
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The ask box limit is 500 characters, I believe, so by all means don’t copy the questions. Thanks again to those of you who bother to fill this out. It really means a lot to me :)

Cheers,
Kevin